Random Thoughts

My mind is so full of random thoughts that are constantly squirming around.  Why can't I just accept the things that I cannot.  I am constantly searching for answers, when I need to just let things be.  When will my heart and my mind agree or will they ever agree.

These are the questions/thoughts that woke me up this morning at 4:00.

•  wonder if he is off work yet?
• Why can't I let this go?
• Should I send him a text, it is his birthday.
• Jo, just sign the papers.
• It sucks being on probation.
• I so want to get in my car and go.
• I hope my probation officer/judge let me change companies
• I'm not the same person anymore.  Is that a good thing or bad thing.
• You are holding on to something that will never be. Give up...
• Don't forget to do the rebate for the contacts.

These thoughts/questions/concerns kept me up from 4:00 - 6:00 AM.  Every night its something different but I have been averaging only about 5 hours of sleep for a good minute. Which is not good. My body stays tired.

On another note which is not quite related to this topic. Well it is in a way.  I find it so interesting that people are so quick to say what they would do if they were to find themselves in a certain situation.  You can voice your opinion all you want,everyone is entitled to their own, but you don't know what you would do if  you were faced with a certain situation.  Or what about these people who try to give you advice or some type of wisdom. Ummm.... ma'am, I just told you that last week and now you trying to tell me the same thing.  You want me to listen to you say it but when I said it to you, you completely cut me off. Oh, okay.  That's how we do things now.

SMH.... I gotta go...